Zachery Chartkoff
The Shark Girl:
Sonnet Cycle
I.
Press your mouth up to mine. These words displease
but its all we got. I am salt, blue mists covering dune grass.
Dunes are the junkie's eyelashes. You are drunk. Our kiss consists
of your tongue in my mouth. Fat tongue that twists in the wet air.
Your mouth is a squandered coast, a lone girl walking toward us. This
tryst is odd, you would never allow a third to join us, another
voice that yammered your name. Yammering. Once I kissed the ghost
of a drowned girl. You are not her. No word or kiss can bring her
back. You, a bone coast and I? Something simple you will forget,
like tar fog's chill or a love dog's
regret.
II.
It is not this kiss that binds ghosts here. Not
their drowned bodies, you see, that is crucial to keep the drowned
here; "if I had known what it's like …" No kiss can fill them with
lustful warmth. I ran my tongue along each dreadful wound. Kissed
where the skin webbed the hand into fin. Her breath gave off a
starved-curd, carnal stench. I licked right where the shark teeth bit
through her side. Where "Ta'awah," the old Hebrew word for lust,
was cut before they threw her overboard. It's not this kiss they want,
you see, but the breath that comes with the rapture. Let them say,
"if I'd known what it's like, dear, I'd have let you take me right
now, right
here."
III.
A plea heard, cut off, like mad. Guttural
distress in the fog. Some depraved rapture. Raving. Someone in the
grizzle-drizzle. Some thing out there yowling out her vulgar
garbled mouthfuls. Ghost girl. Still, I shiver every time she
touched me. Passing through me like ice. The way the dead always
shudder when they embrace us with blue lips milky with need. They
say death turns lust nakedly urgent. Who still cries like that? Her
mouth swung open. The coast swung shut. Who would blindly follow
to the root of that throat? My tongue lost in mist. Someone gives a
cry, distress. Cuts off, cries, cut off, cries. This is
endless.
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